So the last two days have been a bit off key and I am not really sure why. Okay, so I really do know why but didn’t think it would matter. By off key I mean I can’t catch a calf to save my life. I have just flat out missed them the last two rodeos.
So as most of you know we are in the middle of haying season. That means that Dad is pulling his normal off my meds kind of drama that he always does this time of year. By that I mean that we have hayed the first section with three more to go. Then I have made some late night rodeos. That means that Dad hasn’t taken his medication regularly. Why the two things have to go together I am not sure but it is a once a day pill and he will not take it any other time of day even if we are going to be gone at the time he normally takes it. Then he ends up skipping pills and so on and so on. Until finally he just doesn’t ever take them. When he goes off his medication he gets all crazy and has to create drama where there isn’t any. And that means messing with Mom and I by not letting us get enough sleep to do the chores and work at hand. Not to mention Mom has a job off the farm this year that she has to do as well.
Every year Dad does this. It isn’t anything new. Not the same drama but he creates some kind of issue none the less. This year he refused to sleep when we had time and then wanted to drive with only 2 hours of sleep in 48 hours. Mom said that was a wreck waiting to happen and in the new truck that wasn’t a chance we needed to be taking. There was no reason for him NOT to get sleep other then he didn’t want to, but he kept getting Mom and I up and having excuse after excuse why we HAD to get the hay in. Honestly, there was no real reason to act that way.
There was one point in time that we thought it was going to rain but when it didn’t happen we (Mom and I) took a break and were going to finish up after we got some sleep. However, once we all laid down Dad decided he didn’t want to wait and got everyone up less then 2 hours later to haul it in. He didn’t go to sleep at all. Then at another point he woke me up to haul in the last 26 bales of hay that he had NOT even baled yet. I have no idea why I had to be up to watch him bale them. He could have baled them and then if it was so important he could have got me up to haul them in. Really, I can’t haul them in until they are baled so I could have gotten some much needed sleep.
Then on top of that I had rodeos to attend. With no sleep and no driver because he wouldn’t get any sleep I was super exhausted. By the time it came time for my turn to rope I honestly just physically didn’t have the energy to throw my rope and keep my loop open. I was so tired that I just missed and Dad and I both knew it. Mom always asks “at what cost” Well, this weekend those 26 bales cost me a lot. And doing the hay Dad’s way yet again, has a higher price then I really want to pay. I have learned that I just can’t rope when I am that tired. However, I tried to keep Dad happy by being up and doing the hay his way and it Cost me.
I know this is going to sound funny but I have a formula for my day that I use when Dad isn’t home and when I get to do things my way I am not tired, I get in my roping practice, I get all the chores done, I take care of any things that needs to be fixed and I take care of farm visits. I think I need to make Dad let me do things my way. My formula is simple and while some might say it is silly, all I know is that it works for me.
I wake up at 5 am. I rope first thing in the morning when it is cooler. That way it is easier on the horses as well as myself. Then I do chores and anything else that needs attention for the day. By lunch time everything is done around the farm. And if it isn’t I do it after I eat lunch. Then I take myself about a 2 hour nap. I get up and take care of any farm tours that show up but for the most part this time of day is the hottest and there are only a few families that will brave the kind of heat we have been having. That being said, I take care of any that do show up. After my nap I get up and do any more chores I need to get done. This is normally filling water troughs again as the heat has the livestock drinking a lot these hot days. I also do anything else that needs my attention. Then if I have a rodeo or roping I head out well rested and with everything done.
After talking to Mom about all this last night on the phone as I drove home, I decided it was time to do things my way. Today Mom helped me get up and she is helping me get back on my schedule. There is time to do everything and everything gets done WITHOUT having to sacrifice my health, the animals or any task I need to get done. All I have to do is plan it all out the night before like I normally do and then NOT let Dad change the Plan. And that includes the haying. Mom says I am the Farm Manager and it is up to me to take charge and manage the farm like she knows I can. However, she also understands how Dad is and She has said she will help me get control back starting today. I guess it is time that I man up, step up and stand up for the way I do things ….